@MELLYDAO

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CHANTELLE
DANNY
ELLE
ELTON
EMILY
HELENTHAI
KHOI
LEANNCHAN
LISABUI

Write down what you want to say to ten people, but never will. Don’t write their names, leave it anonymous and never speak of it again.

1. you are definately my sister from another mister. i adore you, utterly and completely. you may think so lowly of yourself but darling try seeing yourself from my eyes - you are non judgmental (of me), one of the most understanding people i've ever met and completely loyal. we rarely fight, which is quite a feat. i love you completely, and how i've changed i know but you, you still stay a constant in my life. you haven't abandoned me. we've just recently talked about our future and it's something i look forward to as long as you're there to comfort me when i fall.
i know sometimes you must feel torn between your friends and me since we don't get along too well anymore and i'm sorry that it's like that. we haven't been friends since diapers, we haven't been best friends since the beginning of high school. it's just been two years but babe - it feels like eternity to me.

2. you used to mean something to me, someone like above in a sense, loyal, kind, nice but you left me. you won't say it out loud, you won't admit it to yourself, but you left me behind for someone else. you might think it's okay like. its not a competition. and it isnt, but i just do not like your idealisation of how things are. because of how they were.
and now, if you took your head out of the clouds you might realise we're stuck in a complete rut because i just didn't want to let go - which i am doing now. we talk about the same things in life, the constants, in hope to stay constant. yeh, i've changed and im sorry you couldn't adapt to that.
you think you're understanding but you are no where near. because you lately, don't understand me at all. but thanks for trying i suppose.
so drop the act, be brutal cause i will be.

3. we used to be different, much closer. and now our traditions are left behind and are just reminders of what was. at least you know what's going on.
i have nothing else to say to you.

4. i wouldn't know what i would be without you, you were a catalyst to me. and i'm thankful in everyway. we laugh, we cry, we do the most stupidest things ever. sometimes we might not think alike but it's okay because we'll just meet up on the same page eventually again.
you're the person i feel completely comfortable with my secrets because i know you'd understand with all the life experience you hold and the fact that you wouldn't judge me.
what can i say darling?
my life would be blue without you.

5. i hated you, you digusted me. but i suppose your treatment of me made me into a stronger person, thicker skin - a bigger bitch. thanks for the good times, while they lasted i had fun. you were just too manipulative, too complicated for me.
but guess who came out smiling? :)

6. you spread rumours behind my back and did it with a smile. our relationship was and is so fake. and i couldn't imagine it any other way. i hate you though you know?
the feeling's mutual, yeh i know.

7. you have got to be one of the most randomest girls i've ever met. so different - personality and style wise. and i adore it <3.
i know you'll be one of the girls i'll be partying hard with ! see you then babe.

8. we were close, then drifted then got close again. you mean much to me. under all the things i say to you - you should know by now.

9. you used to be someone significant in my life, someone i leaned on. til you turned around and and joined the rest of the sheep. you never did try to understand, you never did ask me.
i know you're a nice person, a good person. i told you i'll miss you but instead you replied with i miss the old melly from so and so. and for that i will forget you. why bothering remembering a person who hopes you never changed. and to be honest i havent changed that drastically. i'm sorry you couldn't understand. i'm sorry you're that narrow minded. i pity that you hold this deluded fact that you hold life experience but really, it was nothing. something so insignificant. how can i explain this... you think your life experience has surpassed mine because it was longer, well honey. try to minus out the 10000000ti05it024141- miles.
i tried to fix it, you know i did.
but you know what? you're replaceable.

10. numbeeer 10. i miss you, we should catch up soon because you were one of those people who've always had faith in me, complete utter faith because you saw something in me. and even with all those times i treated you horribly, you still stuck by me.
i really miss you.



and so the paranoia begins, if you're wondering if you're in here. if i love you that much, or i hate you that much deep down. you probably are.
theres two people who probably still hold the image that they mean something to me, open your eyes - you dont. not anymore.
please realise it. before i have to open your eyes myself.
and trust me it wont be pretty.


ps. number 11 - your way nice and way kind and i love your high cheekbones. ENVY.
11:07 AM

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